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1. I had an a weird but awesome dream.

2. bookshop posting and then, randomly, there was a STARGATE: ATLANTIS Fandom Primer on your flist which is a must read for anyone who is or has ever been in SGA fandom, and anyone who's not but craned their head over the side of the fandom fence once and wondered what the HELL their neighbors were doing over there. BEST FANDOM EVER THE END.

3. Merlin vid rec!! I watched this too late (see: previous post about failing at lj, etc. etc.) to put it in my attheroundtable post, which is a shame but OMG YAY.

As The Day Is Fading by lovestories (Merlin OT4 vid okay maybe OT5 with Lancelot, PG)

I love "White Houses" by Vanessa Carleton. And I love me some Merlin OT4. This vid is the perfect intersection of those loves. Seriously, though, it's beautifully edited, and the song is all about this bittersweet but hopeful loss of innocence and a group of friends, which is why it's utterly perfect for making a Merlin vid. GO SEE IT NOW IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY.

*In college, I used to be a fairly ridiculous person. I don't mean in the frat-girl, dancing-on-the-table, streaking-the-quad kind of way (OK FINE ONLY SOMETIMES), but more that I used to be way more of a spazz. A procrastinating, all-over-the-place, sometimes-a-flake of a girl. Consequently, I spent most of my time in college when I was not in class fighting the urge to walk to the sunken gardens and do a massive, full body, HOLY SHIT WHY IS MY LIFE SO AWKWARD faceplant into the grass.

I'm not saying this is a great way to live, and I do enjoy being mostly (ha) on top of my shit and on time/early to work every day, etc. Still, there is a part of me that wishes I could go back (metaphorically) to that time in my life where my mom walked into a room with me and my friends and said, I found this vibrator when I was cleaning the basement, where do you want me to put it? (TRUE STORY, KIDS.)

That's weird, right?

Anyway, the point of this story is actually not my post-adolescent angst, it's about vibrators. (Surprise!)

( Cut for vibrators. And my blathering. )


*In fandom news, I’m being feeling a wee bit strange. As in bizarrely wandering back down memory lane and reading stuff like Professionals fic and Ray/Ray Due South stuff and sad McShep stories that remind me why John Sheppard can break my heart into tiny pieces like no one else. I think it has to do with Merlin being on hiatus and SGA being over and maybe I’m a wee bit adrift? I dunno. :(


*In more news, I signed up for the Pay It Forward meme from verav and then, ignoring the whole point, forgot to post it to my lj. So! Here it is! Look out for baked goods, probably vegan ones (even though I’m not vegan anymore). But who knows, I might get inspired to do something else like write all that fic I mention but never finish:

The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me. It will be about or tailored to those five lucky "victims."

This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:
- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
- What I create will be just for you.
- It'll be done this year.
- You have no clue what it's going to be or when it’s going to be. It may be fic. It may be poetry. I may draw or paint something. I may bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.

If you comment in this post, you have to post this in your journal. Thats the catch. So do it. DO IT.



*So. How you doin'?

Question to the Universe: Why, oh why, oh why am I not on a VH1 "World Series of Pop Culture" team?

Seriously. I am so much better than these chuckleheads. Who doesn't know that the song from the SNL Chippendales/Chris Farley sketch is "Working For the Weekend"? *yeah, does the dance*

Also, new SGA tonight! I keep forgetting that there's a new one every week, and then I remember, and then I'm like happy and stuff. *twirls hair*

Ah. The crack_van is back. Just in time to distract me from my remaining finals. Yessss.

In other news, moonblade85 went to a gay pride parade thing in Philly this weekend....

THERE WERE MOUNTIES. She got pictures. Squee!

Damn my school for not letting me out early enough to go. Between this and the random people who ran into CKR and Hugh Dillon recently... *so. freakin'. jealous.*

Yahoo! is my homepage. Go take a look. I don't know if it's just me, but the time that is listed on the "In The News" thingie did not take Daylight Savings in account. (Incidentally, the "In The News" section had an article on Daylight Savings this past Sunday, but apparently chose to ignore it.) It has been wrong for about a day and a half, and is, for some reason, DRIVING ME BATSHIT. It won't change! Even when I tell it that I live in Burma!

I just complained about to Yahoo. (Yes, apparently I am That Girl.) But they better take care of this, or you know what? I may make Google my homepage instead. Take that, you wrong time page you.

The thing is, I'm really not that anal! I swear! Except for when I am.

I really should just take my sn off my facebook profile. Weird, *weird* people I don't know keep IMing me. I just don't do the whole talking online to strangers thing.

Tonight was a comp sci/philosophy major who's been on facebook since September and yet has only 2 friends. 2. Sketchy. However, despite being vaguely creepy, this guy apparently has a webcomic which is very amusing. Like this one:

( Placed behind a lj cut due to extreme sacreligious-ness )

In other news, I'm being very busy and important most days. :)

So...this will only really be interesting for Molly, Lini, Meg and Sonja maybe, so the rest of you can roll your eyes and move on. Yeah, it's a fangirl moment.

At school, unlike lucky Meg, I haven't really found anyone to be all slashy and fangirly with. There is my friend Shari who's really into HP, and knows her way around ff.net and FA, but she's not into slash as far as I've been able to tell. So we can bond over the general HP obsessiveness, but no further, as I view the world through slash colored glasses and she doesn't.

Sadly, the general truth is that it's almost impossible to find a fellow slash fan randomly in RL. After all, we don't all go around with T-shirts that say "I read and write gay pr0n based on characters in movies, television, and a popular children's book series. How 'bout you?" And even if you do wear fannish t-shirts, what about the inevitable "What's your shirt mean?" ("Oh, 'Sparrington'? It's a band. They're kinda obscure. Heh.")

This is frustrating to me, but it's partially my fault.

Because maybe I should be more open about it, more willing to let all my friends here know about one of my chief hobbies. But I haven't come out yet as a slasher. And I don't know if I ever will. Hell, I used to not put anything fandom-y here, for fear that some RL person would read it and discover my horrible secret. But you know what? Screw that. It's a part of my life, esp. my internet life, and if I want to post about it I will. And while it's entirely possible that some RL person from school has already tracked down this journal and figured the whole thing out, no one's said anything yet. (Besides, it's almost like having them know isn't nearly as bad as actually explaining it in person.) But until someone confronts me about it, I'll continue to live a double life. Which is kind of sad, because it means I'm a little bit ashamed of the whole business, even though I know I shouldn't be. *sigh*

That said, I'm especially aware of how lucky I am to have you guys from back home who are in fandom too. It's nice to have a RL and internet outlet for this.

Despite all that, I do keep trying to find fellow slashers here at school. And maybe I'm just projecting here, but recently I've come to believe that my friend Erica, if she wasn't too 'cool' to be into fanfiction, would in fact be a slasher.

My evidence:

*She once said to me that because she's a film major, she knows homoerotic subtext in movies like no one else (I scoffed at this. She's got nothin' on me.)

*When watching Jeeves and Wooster, has totally agreed with me that they're so married. And, when Jeeves leaves Bertie's service over the trombone, she was like, "Nooo!!! They can't break up!!" And she thought it was really cute that they still hung out even while Jeeves wasn't working for Bertie because, as she said, "They have to be together!"

*She has this film class project where she has to take a movie and make a trailer for it. Only the trailer has to make the movie come off completely differently in the trailer than it actually is. Like, for example, making a trailer of Psycho that makes it come off as a tender drama about a mother and son. One of her ideas? Take the Odd Couple and create a trailer for it that makes it seem like a breakthrough gay romance movie for the 60s. Dude!! The girl wants to make a slashy vid! And she doesn't even know what that is!!

Intriguing, ne?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOLE-AY!!!

It's pink. Just for you.

Crap. Now that I have a job and $ and a bit of free time, the lures of ebay and internet shopping have taken me.

Must restrain self before I end up going to bed having ordered (in addition to the things I've already purchased) the Complete Series of Firefly, seasons one and two of The Office and shitloads of other TV Series stuff that I don't need...exactly. *deep breath* Okay. I think I am under control.

Ooh. Just remembered fabulous Easy Bake Oven t-shirt on the Hot Topic website...